Saturday, March 28, 2009
Lindsay, (she's in the second picture below, looking gorgeous as always in the black/striped dress!) is with our health system's foundation, and has worked hard to build some fabulous relationships in town, including the owners of Zan, who also own three other restaurants. So, they gave us a great deal on the food for the evening, which was SO yummy! One of the owners, Mike, is also the chef and did a culinary demonstration for the women, showed them how to fix Touch's signature bacon-wrapped dates.
Gretchen Miekley, holding the camera in the above pic, is a local photographer and is SO talented! She took pictures of all of the committee members prior to the event, and also some women who are cancer survivors, since this year's proceeds go to our support services in our cancer center. I have one of the pics as my profile pic on my blog now, and will have some more I'll put on here soon. Check her site out, here. She has some beautiful work.
A few of the committee members ended up the evening at our local spot, Parlor 88, for a post-event cocktail. We've enjoyed planning this event, and most meetings have been on Thursday afternoons, so we would follow our meetings with a glass of wine for happy hour at P88. Now that the event is over, we won't have a regular meeting set, but I hope we'll still get together some.
Oh yeah, another highlight of the evening was our silent auction, which had some great things, including a piece of jewelry from my friend and local metalsmith, Tammy Kirks. And, as has happened several years now, I won it in the auction. I will post a pic soon. I'd try it on now, but you wouldn't want to see me this morning, still in my jammies with bedhead... wouldn't do the jewelry any justice!
Jace and I will be headed to the movies later today, to see "Monsters and Aliens", the new animated movie that is out. Then we're having dinner with Gail and family this evening. We may possibly get 1-4" of snow (SNOW, in late March - YUCK!) but Gail just lives one street over, so no worries on being out in the inclement weather. Hope everyone is having a wonderful weekend.
Monday, March 23, 2009
We got together for a late lunch on Saturday with another high school friend, and headed to the wineries in Ste. Gen later that afternoon. Unfortunately, the wineries were still on the winter time schedule and were closing right as we arrived, so we didn't get to visit them on Saturday. But we headed back on Sunday afternoon, and enjoyed the scenery and beautiful weather at Chaumette Winery.
It was a beautiful afternoon, and I hope to go back and visit Chaumette again when the weather is warmer. There is a path through the woods between Chaumette and neighboring Charleville Winery that would have been nice to walk, if we had more time. I bought a couple bottles of wine; the best known wine in Missouri is the Norton, which is not as smooth as a Cabernet, but is still very good, in my opinion. And, as we discussed with Daisy, the catering manager of the winery, that's all that really matters- what tastes good to you!
I headed home to Springfield last night; I had to work today, but now am off work tomorrow with Jace for his spring break. I have a work event on Thursday night, so will be working Wednesday and Thursday, but will be off Friday with him, too. Then my dad is coming to visit Friday night, after a conference here in Springfield, so we're looking forward to seeing him soon. Happy Monday, again, everyone!
So then I stepped to the side of the counter to wait for my food, smiling and thinking to myself, "Do I LOOK like I have a 17-year-old daughter!? Damn, I thought I looked good for 37, but she obviously thinks I look old enough to be her friend's mother!" I mean, technically, I could have a 17-year-old, if I had been a mother at age 20. I just don't feel like I could be a mom to a 17-year-old. Of course, Jace is only 10 - talk to me in 7 years, and I'm sure I'll feel the same way then.
Happy Monday to all!
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Then later that day Jace and I headed downtown with friend Gail and her kiddos to catch the annual St. Patty's Day parade through the square. There were all kinds of booths, face painting, hats and horns for sale - and Jace and Connor both bought one of these annoying horns. (Gail tells me tonight that Connor's broke this afternoon -- I'm going to HAVE to figure out how the same fate can befall the one at our house!) Here are some pics from the parade:
After a 40 minute wait, Caitlyn finally got her shamrock!
See them at the top? Blowing those darn horns!
"Here comes the parade!!"
Doggies on parade...
It was a fun day, but the weather was only in the 50s and then at the end it started raining so we left a bit early and headed to the car. We had dinner at Gail and Dan's house that night, followed by a bit of impromptu karaoke on the bed downstairs in their computer room (note that the HORNS were still intact at that point!)
Jace and I headed home early, about 8:30 PM last night, both of us worn out from the busy day. Now it is time to get ready for the work week again, and I'm procrastinating finishing up some documents that are due tomorrow. So, time to close the blog, put some coffee on, and get to work! Hope all have a wonderful week.
Friday, March 13, 2009
Jace and I had a conversation the night before last that was humorous but has also stuck with me. It was nearly 10PM and he was in his bedroom, and supposed to be asleep. He had been playing his Nintendo DS (handheld video game) until lights out, and now was finding every reason in the book to still be up... a trip to the bathroom... a request for me to heat up his rice pillow...the boy has always taken forever to go to sleep! Needless to say, my patience was wearing thing. As I sat in the living room working on my laptop, he called from the bedroom:
J: Mom, will you come and take my DS out of my room?
J: I'm tempted to get it out and play it, so I want you to come and get it so I can't...
Me: No, just put it down by your bed - you'll be fine.
J: But Mom, please just come and get it!
Me: No, son -- its called WILLPOWER... you need to just MAKE yourself not play it and go to sleep! Besides, if I walk back there in a little bit and catch you playing it, you know you'll be grounded, so that should help your temptation!
My "mom logic" won out, and he did leave it alone and eventually fell asleep. As I finished up my evening, I chuckled to myself about his reasoning and how it rings true in my own life, and I'm SURE in many other peoples' as well.
How many times do we lack the willpower to do, or not do, something? Getting up in the morning to go work out? Where's my WILLPOWER to do that!? Or, lately, where's my willpower been when I get that Nestle slice and bake cookie dough out every night and make myself 18 cookies? (Ok, an exaggeration, but still...). Or at work, with our new job descriptions that all managers have to complete - I'm going to be working on them this weekend, because I procrastinated doing them a bit at a time over the last six weeks! I think right now I'm like Jace... I need a "Mom" moment, someone to come in and kick my tail into gear, so I will get back in the game!
Don't worry- I'm cutting myself some slack right now, and realizing that right now in my life I really don't HAVE to do everything right on time, or perfectly. But I need to find that happy medium, where I have SOME control, and I'm getting things done, but still giving myself a little leeway as well. It just takes time, I guess, and the self-awareness to realize where I am and that it is OKAY. Happy Friday to all, hope you have a wonderful weekend.
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Our baby event went very well last weekend; it was a long day but things went very smoothly. Later that evening a friend came into town, and we met some of my work friends and spouses for drinks on Saturday night. I enjoyed being off work Sunday and Monday, alhtough catching up from a day off has made the rest of my week busy. THIS weekend is our Junior League 5K to raise money for our crisis nursery. Jace and I are going to walk the 5K on Saturday, or at least the 1 mile fun run. And we'll be bringing Zoe-Wilson with us - Rocky would be too scared with all the crowds, I'm afraid!
I've got cookies in the oven for Jace (uh, and me!) right now, so I'll close and get them out and pour a couple glasses of milk... yum!
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
I had to laugh when I read a couple of pages, where the main character is lamenting about having to tell everyone in her life about her divorce. I have feel like that over the past couple of months, and I'm sure I will for some time. I see people I haven't seen in awhile and cringe, even consider avoiding saying hello to them, knowing they will probably ask how me and my husband are and then I'll have to tell them. So when I read the below excerpt from her book, I loved it and just had to share:
"...Eventually I will have to tell everyone who hasn't heard through the grapevine. Some people will get the whole story and some people will just get a terse "We've separated" without explanation. The trick is deciding who gets what... But then I'm filled with dread as I realize there are still legions of people who deserve and need to hear the whole story. Still ahead of me are dozens of oh-my-Gods and oh-I'm-so-sorrys and you-must-be-kiddings. I can hear the sympathetic and understandable questions coming at me one after another, and I can feel my tongue, thick and unfamiliar, forming all these tedious words one more time.
I consider a form letter that begins, "Dear Good Friend Who Deserves the Whole Story, I'm sorry this is coming to you as a form letter. I'm sorry about a lot. I'm just sorry."
Or maybe I could build a website, www.whatthe#&?!happened.com, complete with a FAQ page:
- Q. What about the children?
- A. They live with me but they will stay with him every Friday and every first, third, and fifth Thursday night as well as the first Saturday of every month. Yes, it is hard to remember which week it is. Yes, at least once a day the children mention the movie The Parent Trap, in which a pair of ingenious, separated-at-birth-but-reunited-by-fate twins scheme until their divorced parents finally and joyously reconcile. Which brings us to the next inevitable question...
- Q. Will reconciliation be possible?
- A. No. If you read The Whole Story (use password to access the secure site) you will shake your head and say, "No, you cannot get back together." If you do not have access to The Whole Story, you--- like the Transportation Coordinator at my daughter's school ----may feel compelled to advise me to go back and try to work it out and say in a scornful voice what a shame it is when families break up.
- Q. Are you okay?
- A. No, I'm not. Thanks for asking.
- Q. Is there anything we can do to help?
- A. Yes, click on the "Send Money" link below. Most major credit cards accepted."
You may not find it near as funny as I did, unless you have been through a similar experience. It just hit me the right way, how it would be SO nice to deal with some of the conversations, questions and bullshit just like this! Don't get me wrong -- I have had amazing support, from wonderful friends and from my family. It is all the acquaintances that I have had to talk about it with; those conversations are the ones I hate. I know they mean well but it is still sometimes unpleasant.
Oh, and going back to my former name - now that has been an experience. I'm not there yet, still using my current last name until the divorce is final. But I've decided to go back to my first married name, because that is my son's last name, and because most of the community knew me by that name for the last 12 years of my career. But the first husband and his wife were NOT happy. Although that's a story for another time.
Busy week at work, getting ready for our baby event on Saturday. Theresa, my college roommate, is in town for a job, and she, Jace and I are heading to dinner tonight. I'm ready for Saturday, our event and then for Sunday and Monday when I'm off work and can relax!
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
I am the kind of person who will take things for a very long time... that's what I did in my first marriage, for the last three years of it. That's what I did in a job that was very stressful and difficult for the entire five years I worked there. And that's what I did with D - so much of my time over the last six months was spent worrying about every little thing that might upset him. And many of them were really little things, in the scheme of it all. And even though I tried to really work on those things that upset him, it was never enough. He actually would tell me that I wasn't trying at all. Talk about a demotivator. But I continued to try, even with things as difficult as they could be at times. That's just me. The situation can be bad and I just continue to persevere, until I reach a point that I am done. And at that point, I am DONE-- there is no changing my mind. D's decision helped to make up my mind, and I am not willing to go back. I realize that is a fault on my part, that I can make that decision and not look back, but it is just how I deal with things. It takes me a long time to get to that point, but once I'm there, I'm there.
I know he has been very emotional the last couple of weeks, about me "moving on" as he is calling it. (Hello, you tell me on Christmas Day that you want a divorce?? What the hell do you WANT me to do!? -- Ok, little venting there.) He has been regretting that decision, and has made overtures about reconciliation. However, I am unwilling to do that. The trust is no longer there, even though I have loved him and didn't want us to split up. He is a good person, but I know that the same issues that caused him to be so unhappy in our marriage would be back again in six months.
So, we met today to sign papers, to start the process. In 30 days he will recieve the papers back from the judge, and it will be final. He came by this afternoon while I was at work to move the remaining things out of my house, and we talked on the phone briefly. He said to tell Jace goodbye, and that he gave the doggies a hug. I told him earlier today that he didn't need to move things out immediately, but he feels it is better this way. And I'm sure he is right. We will both move on with our lives and we will hopefully in time be in contact again, and be friends. And hopefully we will both have learned some things about ourselves from all of this.